Weary

I am growing weary, no, not physically, but mentally. As enjoyable as it can be to discuss the possibilities of the spiritual realm, I always end up running into that immovable brick wall that is the theists firm belief in their chosen deity. I don't say that as a bad thing, it's just that I know what it's like to believe in God, and now I know what it's like not to believe in God. When I was a Christian I found it impossible that some people didn't believe in God. Now I see the other side, and find myself trying to explain how I could go from one extreme to another.

There was never a time before this year that I did not believe in God. From my earliest childhood memory I believed that God was there, loving and protecting his children. I could write a long description of how my belief waned and eventually got snuffed out, but that would only be a challenge to some believer to come along and tell me I was doing it wrong and that is one of the things I have grown weary of.

I don't write with the goal of making you lose your faith. I may attempt to challenge some of your ideas, especially if they could lead to dangerous things, but if your faith makes you happy and you are not a negative influence on society I don't care what you believe in. I just hope that you would care what you believe in.

Having been a conservative Christian for many years (Yes, I know, I was a false convert, blah, blah, blah.) I know how difficult, nay, impossible it is to comprehend a world without God. I know all the rationalizations that are made to hold onto the One True Faith™ you believe in. Yes, I know your faith is the best and most logical of them all. Of course, so are all the others. It all depends on which believer you talk to. You can't all be right, but most certainly you could all be wrong and so could I.

So I end up preaching, along with Bill Maher, the Gospel of I Don't Know. Try it, you may like it. I think you will find it refreshing and a heck of a lot more honest than the Gospel of I Know For Certain and You Don't.